Yesterday and today I didn’t have to go to work. I didn’t have to use any of my paid time off. I am still getting paid. And my stress and anxiety levels have been the lowest they have been in the last 2 or 3 months. All because I got let go from my job. That’s right. I don’t have a job at the time of writing this. How am I so stress-free if I don’t have a job? Well, the company that let me go is giving me two weeks of pay, which is nice of them as they didn’t have to do that, and I am confident I can find another job pretty quickly.

So the last two days I have spent completely with my wife and kid. We have gone out and done things. Worked on projects together. Snuggled more. Laughed more. Loved more. These last two days have really been the best two days I have had in a long time. Maybe it is ignorance. Maybe I won’t be able to find a job as easily as I assume, but by golly ignorance is BLISS! And sure I have had vacation days while working, but I’m always slightly stressed on vacation making sure everything is okay. Making sure we are getting to the right places, doing the right things, and everyone is taken care of. And then the lingering idea that work is looming over my shoulder. What could have gone wrong while I’ve been gone? What fires will I have to put out when I get back?

Anxiety is the pits.

But I’m not anxious right now. I’m enjoying my time, reaching out to my contacts, and setting up interviews. I've got savings, and I’ll get another job well before they run out.

Now if only I could live like this forever. Spending all my time with my family working on the fun things we want to do.